Born straight and became gay
Thoughout my life I've been curious about this. Just wanted to know if this is only my experience or if it is common. When I was around 6th or 7th standard, suddenly one day I hit puberty. I know because I got vivid dreams of boobs and was getting quite *** in the night itself. Then I used to watch navels of heroines and started masturbating. This went on for some time. I still remember this particular incident. In the newspaper one day, there was a picture of this busty heroine with cleavage and navel exposed. I took the paper, ran to an auto behind our house (the driver used to come only in the afternoon) and masturbated licking at those navels and cleavage. Also once in a browsing center someone who was in the cabin before me, left pic of a naked girl and went. I saw that, couldn't control myself and *** there itself. It was the first time I saw nipples. I was super *** all the time and only remember watching women.
This went on for about 1-1.5 years. Later on, I slowly started getting attracted to men instead of women and at one point, I totally lost interest in women. Even my rib cage that was broadening stopped and my height also stopped (could be just a co-incidence). I'm just wondering if any of the below could be the reason for this.
1. My mom was super protective of me and I was very very close to her. But I never had a working relation with my father. We hardly ever spoke with each other. Not that he is bad or anything, but he is quiet type and I never had any physical or mental connection to him.
2. I never used to play with guys of my age. I went to play cricket once or twice but I was bad in fielding and got scoldings too, so never went after that. They used to call me but I never went. Mostly I was into studies.
3. I was scared and never used to ride cycle/scooter that time but most of the boys (and even girls) started coming to school by cycle or bike at that time. My mom who was very protective of me did not even encourage me to ride cycle and all. She was concerned about my safety. I learnt cycle only when I was in 11th standard and bike/scooter much later.
4. I was mostly a loner and had real friends only after 10th standard. I used to long looking at the friendship of my classmates, the way they play with each other and have bike ride trips at those times.
5. Overall I never felt as an equal to the other boys of my age at that time. I thought they were much better than me because they ride cycle/bike and play well while I was shortcoming. May be that complex turned out to be some kind of physical attraction.
6. This may not be the reason but once I overheard my mom accusing my dad of cheating on her with the neighbor lady. My dad was refuting that and nothing happened after that. But then I was a bit traumatized just to think of it because I was too much affectionate to my mom.
Does anyone else have this kind of experience of being straight during puberty and then turned out to be gay?
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|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 05:13 PM|
But self inquiry is done when we know that we could get to a certain conclusion. Just self inquiring yourself again and again without getting to a certain specific point is just a waste of our valuable time in my opinion. It's a process we opt when we think that there is something wrong with us, which we all know isn't true. Being gay is as normal and natural as anything else in this world. And it has been same for thousands of years. But when society makes us believe that being who you are is wrong then, we start to self inquire about our identity. But why do we do that? Why we start our inquiry with a belief that something is wrong with us and we needs to be fixed? Why not a straight guy questions his sexual identity? Why doesn't he think about being straight and how he became straight? Why nobody questions his sexuality? It's just because we think that being straight is an obvious thing and needs no questioning. Things like your purpose of living, your decisions and your social responsibilities need self inquiry. Not your sexuality in my opinion. Because it won't change you or your feelings. So, in my opinion we should stop questioning our sexuality and start living our life by accepting our self the way we are.
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 06:46 PM|
@shapeoflove, let's agree to disagree. It's not a matter of 'something being wrong': I review my sexuality because I know that in the past it has developed. Yours may not have. We're different.
Being straight isn't an obvious thing; that's the point - all the diversity here on this site alone screams at the need for personal review. And learning sonething new about yourself does change your feelings.
I don't review my purpose for living; I don't see the point. (Isn't your purpose for living fixed?) My decisions are based on imnediate needs; I live in the perpetual present. I fully accept the way I am, but recognise that my behaviour is mutable because of what I know about myself, and that knowledge is the product of self inquiry.
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 09:27 PM|
@C4LEB I partly agree with you but I believe @shapeoflove is making a very good important point especially when you can see majority of people on this particular topic here are retorting to self enquiry in a very confused and delusional manner and vividly turning to blame game as if our sexuality has been vehemently conditioned by environment and people around us. Introspection is a wonderful thing but once self realization is achieved and once we identify we like certain things the best is to accept it rather than continously engaging in self enquiry. This can also translate to state of denial and self rejection maybe not for you but I believe the point of discussion around here mostly pertains to this as put up by the person whoever herewith citing his early socialization issues with other boys and parents' indifference.
|Posted On May 20, 2020 - 08:45 AM|
My experience with gay life started at my age 6. I used to play with my friends....one of the friend used to open my *** and *** it.....that time I used to take it like play.....afterwards I used to like the same fun want it everyday. For that fun, I used to search for friends etc etc....finally by the time my age is 11, I started attracting senior men while playing and had good fun with them.....
All those days, I accept my orientation and try only men for fun....this happend to me till my marriage. I used to appreciate the beauty of girl and visualise the fun of being with them. But never tried to have some romance with them...since I was deeply comfortable and enjoying with men.
Even before marriage I thought whether I can lead marriage life.....believe me ....it turned out to be good to have men to women *** and enjoying it.
Now , I never bothered to define self ...whether gay, bisexual or straight. Definitely not straight since I enjoy being with men too. So, it must be Bisexual type.
For me reverse ...it is being gay to bisexual (ofcourse not to straight yet....since I still look for fun with men)
|Posted On May 21, 2020 - 10:58 AM|
I'm in total agreement with Hottmale, experiences are slightly different. I was used by my male cousin when I was around 7. he was 15+ and he used me for several years. I got habituated with guys and removing shorts, feeling ***, pulling the foreskin etc. Later when I was in grade 8, few guys from hostel started making out, fondling ***, and we graduated to using a *** on outer lips, etc. Gradually started the blow job, ever since I understood the ecstacy of blow jobs, there's no way of going back. it's been an awesome one-way journey. I get *** and I also enjoy *** some nice cut mushroom heads. thicker girths amuse me more, than lengthy ones.
I also am turned on to girls,21-28. I'm not the one for auntys or sloppy ones. I'm more of a butt lover, than a boob lover. I like watching some straight *** too.
My fantasy for *** is watching Tamil audio ***, gay/straight. the audio and conversation turns me on a lot. I am hoping to be married to a woman, I'm still virgin when it comes to *** with women and I am looking forward to it. I am also thinking my hook up with men eon diminish during my wedding with a woman, as I am very loyal to a single person to whom I am committed. I have hooked up several times with a lot of men, but been in a relationship with 4 different guys, and I never saw another guy when I used to be with one guy during that relationship
|Posted On May 23, 2020 - 12:44 PM|
I think cricket was not my cup of tea either.. Like most of the guys here.. But i never had attraction towards girls right from beginning.
No body would believe... But when i was 4 or 5 a girl in neighbor who was about 2 year elder to me use to make me and herself completely nude and we use to play in a closed room like that for hours.. Several unusual games with physical touching of each other bodies.. I dont know may be i was introduced too early for all this that it was no excitement for me.
Now much before puberty.. I started feeling something different about guys.. Conductor of school bus was my first crush.. He was a young lad of age 16-17 may be and use to be only in baniyan as soon as bus leaves school campus...i may be 10 that time..
By 12 my maternal uncle did hanky oanky stuff with me at night while co-sleeping. Pata nahi gay logo ke saath hi aisa hota hai ya jinke saath aisa hota hai wo gay ho jate hein..
|Posted On May 24, 2020 - 09:49 AM|
Hi I am straight guy but I don't know why I am eager to *** ***. Really I want to *** a *** badly but till now I didn't get anyone. I don't know why I am very much interested in *** ***. In my dreams also it came that some is *** my *** woww awesome dream but I didnt get anyone to go live. If anyone is aware about this kind of sense pls respond. In *** also I love to watch shemale porns only...
|Posted On May 27, 2020 - 10:28 AM|
@venuslux36 if imagination of *** *** gives u boner (and u like girls too) then u r bisexual. If u just want to try *** *** without this imagination giving u boner then u are just bi-curious.
|Posted On May 27, 2020 - 10:52 AM|
@hotbotpop I'm very much surprised to read this!! (I even rechecked whether I myself haven't written this). Exactly same things have happened with me but their are some slight differences. First ur last point didn't happen with me in exact manner. My mom never accused my dad of being cheating her with another women, but my dad maintained very close relation with our neighbors, and he considered neighbor aunty as his sister until they cheated with us financially and quarrel broke out between my father and mother on this issue. Rest of things are same. My mom is still very protective to me, I didn't have friends till nearly 5th standard (got friends earlier than u, still it's too much) , didn't have good friends in college for majority of time, was too shy to play outside as I was and still am very bad at sports, only recently I learnt to ride bicycle and so on. I was never attracted to boys, never found any boy in school to be handsome (now I find many of them to be lol) and never had any connection with boys. In my good school days after 5th standard I would spend lot of time to impress girls, even had crush on total 3 girls and used to *** alot while watching straight *** (sometimes with my girl cousins when I would go to their home in holidays). However suddenly in 2nd year of my college, at which time I was completely alone due to lack of friends, started feeling attraction to boys with even more passion than I had felt for girls during so many years! For around 4 months I was complete gay, and I wouldn't get turned on by women at all... I don't know how but somehow I again started to like girls in my final year in college and again had crush on another girl (I was too shy in all 4 times to propose them, when I perfectly knew that 2 of them had given positive responses to me and only formal proposal was remaining) . I don't know whether it's coincidence or what, that time when I started to again like girls was also time when I got really good friends in college. As of now, I identify myself as bisexual, I had equal feelings towards both boys and girls (though emotionally I'm more attracted to girls while physically more to boys). I can get equally hard while seeing both straight and gay *** . Seeing ur example I think surrounding conditions also must be playing important role in deciding sexuality. Nevertheless studies have already suggested that human sexuality is fluid and may change with time. I don't know whether I will again become completely straight from bisexual or go in other direction again, but personally I would like to be bisexual as I can explore my life fully in this scene!!!
|Posted On Jun 19, 2020 - 05:15 PM|
Even I feel the same guys . Born straight and now bisexual or gay not sure . But I would love if someone would make me feel like a girl , I would really love it . I'm nor sure if I want *** or not but I want the warmth , cuddle and oral *** . Would love to *** *** . Scared to say all this , as this is my first time of confession here at ohmojo . But yeah someday I will come out of closet .
|Posted On Jun 19, 2020 - 09:28 PM|
This is going to be a long post. I hope it helps many people here who are as confused as me and are fighting everyday with self and others over it. The pain of self exploration is unfathomable.
I can relate to many points in the discussion.
Here it goes, when I was kid probably 4-5 years old, bit feminish, as I was surrounded by lot of female friends, my voice was also soft. Slowly I started growing up and noticed that people are pointing out faults in me, they were laughing at me, I didn't like it and started working upon my hand gestures and voice, it took me 3-4 years to finally become manly.
When I was 8-9 years old, I remember peeking into my friend's private parts while he used to pee, similarly he used to do the same and we used to just laugh it over without any thing. I also used to watch a lot of WWE then and used to feel a different feeling of tightness in my lower abdomen, it was different from *** as I was kid then. I used to like the muscles and the fights. Slowly I started growing up and then had a major crush on my classmate, she was way over my mind, like I used to go all blank just after seeing her. I also used to play hide and seek with girls and in between used to get close with them, I used to just love that, I remember I was always keen on playing this game and used to wait for it. I was pretty straight then, I used to watch alot of adult content, read about it etc. Used to get dreams about girls etc. I used to admire smart boys of my class who were arrogant and handsome, I used to stalk them and also used to feel guilty of not being one of them. I used to feel jealous and sad about it.
This went on until I became 19, then I stopped watching *** etc for certain time and started avoiding girls as I wanted to focus on studies. It did work and I became 20, I still used to think about them but then I was able to control it. Then, when I became 21, I came in the contact of a spiritual organisation, which I liked alot. I liked it so much so that I wanted to join it as a celibate (no ***, no marriage life long). Here I practiced deep rules of celibacy where I didn't used to look at girls only, leave aside fantasizing about them. This was a very difficult period and to feel alot of frustration. One lesson I learnt was, never suppress your sexual feelings, it can backfire like anything.
So it happened with me, I started generating attraction towards some of my male friends who were kind of cute, fair and femnish. I started developing attraction towards them and I wanted to talk more with them. As I was practicing celibacy, I was happy in a sense that atleast am not getting attracted to girls, thus I can still become a celibate. But time brings its own problems.
I didn't know where I was sweeping into. Slowly I started watching male adult content only as I can't watch female content, initially I used to feel that these men in the clip are just doing acting of getting feelings but slowly as I kept on watching, I also started getting some feelings, and for a year I did so, by the end I was totally into guys. I was so crazy for fun that I made fake fb account to meet a guy, we did some fun but I was so much into guilt that I couldn't sleep. But this process didn't end, I kept meeting guys and discovering what I like in them and what I don't like in them. I also had relationship with girl and guys in between but meeting with guys didn't stop.
I was very frustrated because I was so much into guilt, my entire time used to go apps and just thinking about it, it was hampering my life. I decided to take professional help, it helped me but to a certain extent. I used to think, I have become gay, but the counselling sessions helped me to understand to that it is way beyond all these things. I realised am bi finally. Being Gay or bi is just tags, finally we all are humans who breathe the same air.
Sexual Orientation is very complex, there is no straight answer to it, the best solution what I have today is to accept that I am a bisexual. I have attraction towards both, it only gets increased or decreased according to situation and the contacts, neither of attraction can be totally removed. We can just accept what we are and feel pride about it. It increases respect towards ourselves. I wanted to share many other things but I guess, it will become boring. So am ending here. If you have any comments please drop in here or personally message me. I hope it is helpful to few here.
Love yourself guys, it helps.
|Posted On Jun 20, 2020 - 12:27 PM|
@sonu321 and @ CoSoul : Same here guys...i used to have a girlfriend too meanwhile was having some fun with my friends so i was a bisexual..after break up I stopped the fun part and concentrated on work..now after a long time when its time for sexual desires the interest between male and female changes time to time according to situation but more interested in shemales/trans..Lack of fun makes me frustrated too..the thing is im hesitant in making a move towards anyone whether online or in cruising spots ..but will be searching for good friends..when that works out theres gonna be a quality time..this applies not only for me but many others too i think.
|Posted On Jun 20, 2020 - 07:24 PM|
I can't believe it. It is the same story. Word to word. Exact same. Thanks for sharing this. It always feels good to see people have experienced it in same way!
I feel my curiosity towards gay community has bigger share for me being here.
|Posted On Jun 21, 2020 - 12:21 AM|
Dear cosoul more than 90 % story is matching with my life.
Whenever I asked someone that how u become gay noone told me about them . I am always curious about them that what situation or under what circumstances he become gay ?
|Posted On Jun 21, 2020 - 03:24 AM|
Thanks hbkarthick & ammy196, for reading my story.
It is really great that am personally receiving a lot of support, trust me this support is making me happy feel proud about what I am. This is the very support, which all of us need and this thread is really helping us to get that strength. Also, I am receiving requests to share the remaining story. I will share that soon too.
Thanks Ohmojo, for this platform :)
|Posted On Jun 24, 2020 - 01:26 AM|
Looks like most people here once liked girls and boys. We encounter *** earlier than we need to. As *** is all about excitement we start finding many ways to fulfill that. Those who cross gender lines can think of gay fun too. That gives excitement because it's is secrete fun with lots of excitement.
I feel $ex is all about excitement ..
|Posted On Jun 26, 2020 - 03:40 AM|
This topic might be real. Almost all of the people who have commented here have more or less the same story. And so is mine.
My cousin brother used to live us since childhood. He is 5 years elder than me. Right from a very young age (6-7 years old), we used to play with our *** together. He was elder so he knew stuff. Initially he used to hold mine and I used to hold his under sheets in bed. Later on he used to *** mine and me his. But at that age neither did I understand it nor did I enjoy. I don't remember if I enjoyed or not. Later on.....his *** grew and with years going by he also started rubbing his *** in my *** and used to try inserting it. I used to like only the feeling of rubbing it, but overall I did not enjoy it but used to do because he would also allow me to do the same. This went on till standard 11-12. Till that time we had *** each other too some of the times.
Having all this going on, but I was never attracted to any guy in my right mind. Emotionally and romantic-ally my heart always searched for a girl. I fell in love in standard 9. Faced the heart break in 11th standard. It took me 4 years to get over her till my second year in college. Towards the end of third year in college, I started falling in love with another girl from my class. The heart break came in after the last year of college. I still haven't been able to get over her. Just last night again I was dreaming about her. Just like old days we were together and it is such a great feeling. Wish if I would forever be in that dream.
Sorry I diverted to different topic. So about me finding boys/men is that whenever I am ***, that is the time I think about ***. I feel lime wanting to *** a good and clean ***, sitting naked together watching ***, me holding someone else's *** and they holding mine, or rubbing our *** together. Trying the 69 position, *** and getting ***. I enjoy gay *** too much but not the penetration part, I dislike that. But all this is there only till I am ***, once I am done ***, I feel all this stuff useless and unenjoyable. Then I think only about girls, not boys, till the next time I am ***.
|Posted On Jun 30, 2020 - 07:48 PM|
not sure if the title is correct.. "Born straight and became gay".. what if we were born gay and turned straight
|Posted On Jul 1, 2020 - 09:01 AM|
For those who claim to have hit a heart at 9th grade and ended in 11th, it wasn't love ot was just your hormones pumping.you to do so. It's not called love! That's just infatuation.. Its called puppy love. Even I had once and everyone goes thro that. so stop the BS and be honest with yourself. So you like to think of guys only when you re *** and then back to girls huh?!? What do you think of guys as whores to just satisfy your lust and then you crawl back to your ***?
Be honest and true to yourself, and dont pass the BS that you are normal. Get yourself treated and get out of this community if you think that you just want boytoys. Do you ever get tired of your own lies and your acts to think that you re straight and someone turned you gay????
|Posted On Jul 5, 2020 - 05:17 PM|
Unimate seems like you totally disagree with most of the comments in this thread?
|Posted On Jul 5, 2020 - 06:17 PM|
Some of us seem to not comprehend the fact that sexuality is a spectrum. It's not one of two things. Most people don't have a definite sexuality and that's fine. Nobody has the right to shame you for being gay, straight or anything in between. Humans are complex creatures, labels and group identities fail to recognise how unique every single person is. You can be someone who likes having *** with anybody regardless of gender but only prefer to have a real emotional and physical relationship with just men or only women. As long as you're choosing to do things because that's really who you are and not choosing it because of outside pressure/fear like society or family it's completely normal. Don't let anybody tell you any different. You don't have to fit their opinion on what sexuality should be. You're your own person, just make sure you're honest to yourself so that you can be happy with your choices.
|Posted On Jul 27, 2020 - 07:10 AM|
@hotlund, yes I agree to disagree what the comments and thoughts here.
|Posted On Jul 29, 2020 - 06:51 PM|
Sexual feelings is lot complex and it needs constant discovery. No one is 100% gay, bi or straight. Labels just destroy the actual feelings.
I believe, one is free to feel the inner as one's wish and they should not be judged rather they should be accepted as they are so that they can feel #pride of themselves.
|Posted On Aug 1, 2020 - 06:26 AM|
All that is good but how to live a practical life with such complex and non binary sexuality? Suppose someone gets emotionally attracted to girls only and so is sexually too. But he also feels attracted to bulges of guys or *** for that matter. How would he lead a satisfying life then? He wants to marry a girl, but also enjoys sometimes when *** with guys. If he is in a urban area, we can say that he can once in a while have fun with guys found through places like ohMojo or Grindr or whatever. But should he keep it a secret from his wife/family? Or what is logical or moral thing to do? Imagine if the guy is based out of rural area, there neither anyone would understand nor would he get any guy for fun. And to what extent all this is right? Since we also have family/friends/society and not always everyone can leave them and live life on their own terms neglecting what the society/people/family says. Sometimes it is not even possible to imagine that they can understand such a thing even exits. LOL.........I wrote too much.
|Posted On Aug 1, 2020 - 06:31 AM|
@hotlund...situation varies based on individuals...
some are happily married.. and leading their secret life in parallel.... some are struggling to manage.. some are into issues...
doesnt matter rural or urban... am sure this feel is there across everywhere.... so many times i have heard real stores from villages and smaller towns... its all those days when no technology available.. but now, many possibilities... and even in villages, this is happening... so its up to how guys are managing this..
|Posted On Aug 4, 2020 - 07:08 AM|
I am not sure if I was born gay or became gay because of encounters in early childhood. I remember when I was 3, there was a neighbour boy may be in his teens, 13-14 years, his both parents were working. He would call me to his home to play...my parents knew him well. He would offer my some sweet and would ask me to *** his. I started liking it, I remember salty taste of *** too. Then we shifted to another place. In summers I used to go to my cousins place during school holidays. Manytimes, cousin used to keep my hand on his *** while in sleep. I started liking that too.. Then it happened with different cousins. I *** too.. many times. I used to loom forward to summer vacation to enjoy. While in school after 9th or so, I started liking handsome strong guys of my class/school. I used to dream about them and wanted to *** . Nothing happened in school or college though I had crush on many. After internet came I met few guys and had ***. I m married now but always look for sexy handsome guys. Had crush on many office friends too ... told one office friend that I like u. he did not react .. we are still friends.. No *** though with him...I am not sure if childhood incidents made me gay
|Posted On Aug 4, 2020 - 02:33 PM|
I became interesting in bisex coz of my friends brother , he talked like girly style he had a stunning jaw clean shaved when i suddenly started talking more with him and he asked if i like him or what he understood the sign n i shared my first kiss, first bj with him but unfortunately we could not have *** coz he was not ready for any discreet relationship. I kissed lot of guys but he will always be my first love
|Posted On Aug 15, 2020 - 08:09 AM|
I was born straight but, at childhood me and my one frnd use to try many different things to play and one day we found a CD in his house as we were playing and no one was home at that time.
We were kids around 12 years so we played that CD and it was a *** movie. We laughed at first and slowly we are enjoying it as we dnt hv any idea why are the peoples are naked and playing with their genitals.
My frnd tells me lets try this.. so we are started watching and for many months we thought lets try to touch each others ***.. and as a result we started *** each others ***..
As time goes by, the *** turned into *** and still we are friends.. so thats way I become gay even i born staright.
|Posted On Aug 15, 2020 - 03:06 PM|
So, *** made you gay?
Not that you were open to it, or acted upon the impulse, or didn't reject it, or didn't grow out of it once your balls dropped? Or didn't carry the impulse over to straight *** when you 'matured'?
*** made you gay?!?
|Posted On Aug 22, 2020 - 11:41 AM|
Yes bro,, most of the incident are same in my case also... Struggling a lot with this. .. Don't know what to do.. 😩😭😭
|Posted On Aug 24, 2020 - 12:20 PM|
Well.......*** is a big player in my case too. Initially I used to watch straight ***, but once I watched gay *** in class 10 or so.....after that I got addicted to it. Now I enjoy gay *** more than straight ***, but in gay ***, I skip the parts where they do *** as I don't like *** or anything to do with anus.
|Posted On Aug 26, 2020 - 10:10 AM|
Is it just me or its startling to see so many stories overlapping over the *** category.There is a pattern.Albeit after reading this thread, saying we realised we're gay due to some isolated incident or pinpointing it on something is stupid ,it should also be noted that the *** that you watch also tells you a lot abt your sexuality.I say that bcoz growing up watching *** ,I did watch *** with my cousins and it was only me who was so interested in the gay one .Even if guys watch it ,they find a way out of it ,they find their ultimate interest .So absolutely ,the *** u watch does tell you what you like.
Growing up ,I was just as normal as other kids , albeit I didn't like to be the part of the crowd . Nothing feminine but more on the lines of shy and not wanting to do what others would .I played all the sports guys did and Everything else . However for me it was how emotionally attached I would get to my close friends.But that was just couple of instances and everything became alright again .For me ,I wanted to shun the lust .I always thought attractions are the equivalent of lust so paid no attention to it .Until I stumbled upon Grindr ,and fell in love head over heels to fully realise I'm gay .I'm still told by my friends that maybe I'm confused because I don't seem gay to them in anyway .
In a country like ours finding out abt our selves is formidable due to the taboos associated with this on every walk of life .Isn't that a reason why so many gay men marry girls and while some of em pull it off without extra maritals,most of em end up cheating their wives , shamelessly.Also because there are so stringent straight gay boundaries here ,it's like if a guys good looking even straight men feel attracted to him at times without realising it .My friends even tell me that even they feel attracted to some eye candies but that doesn't make them gay .So ,while the rationale is definitely not easy and you find urself sitting on the fence ,it boils down to an individuals Honesty.U just cannot *** with guys and call yourself bisexual.U have to decide .And then in subcontinents ,it has been ok to be attracted to the same *** if it's a mirror cracking material.Most people get attracted to charming men ,even if they're not sleeping with em .And then it becomes ok to indulge in hanky Panky .
Being honest is the last thing on an Indian guys mind as there is so much weighing down on his mind , influencing his decision .But as we see the case with the married ones ,they miserably fail to make the right choice and ended up living a life of lies . They're too many of em ,it's the one who actually have the liberty to come out and talk ,that we end up seeing .
|Posted On Sep 5, 2020 - 08:24 PM|
I was born straight but when I was age 12 I used to explore the *** and prn things.. one day my neighbor caught me and he said he will tell my parents.. I was soo in danger, then he told me that if I jerk his c o c k then he will not. as he is blackmailing me .
days passed and he wwas coming often to jerk of his load on my face, one day he told me to *** his d i c k.. i refused but then he forecefully hold my head start me *** his.
one year passed of that incident and now I turned 13 , a teenager.
as he used to come and jerk it off, i found it interesting as the testosterone hormone is builting my body and obviously the *** part is most..
then i start enjoying *** his *** and one day when there was no one in his house, he took me and that day he *** me after *** my *** , my virginty is destroyed he then called his two frnds, and they both *** me like hell..
i was so much in pain.. i cant *** for 3 days.. but after a week i was wondering about that situation and I get to know that i loved it , it was so much fun..
and this way i turned into GAY
|Posted On Sep 6, 2020 - 02:32 AM|
Mate you do realize the fact that you were *** @Hardy_G
|Posted On Sep 6, 2020 - 07:06 AM|
Its a jungle out there. In the pathan community of Afghanistan & Pakistan, it is almost part of the culture for adult men to forcefully *** preteen boys. The kids have angelic sweet faces and their bodies are very tender. It is horrifying to see the videos of the brutes focefully bullying & penetrating the helpless & shocked kids. I regularly report the twitter ids posting such videos and get them blocked. Fortunately the pathans of India are more civilised and do not have this practice. Atleast they dont do it brazenly as the laws here are tough.
|Posted On Sep 6, 2020 - 09:11 AM|
@Sayyd its true man....long time ago I had watched a video somebody sent me called "Bachabaazi"....about how innocent children are supplied to men ... sometimes by their own parents for money...and they start at 6 or 7 yrs....and by 13 or 14 they become too old fo this trade...
They are taught to sing and dance and dress and have drugs.
And have *** with multiple men...usually rich zamindar....I was so traumatized after watching it that I couldn't sleep for so many nights... recently somebody sent me a video of transgenders in Pakistan and the horrible life they lead...again very very sad and heartbreaking...such is life ..
|Posted On Sep 8, 2020 - 07:27 AM|
@fucccc.capri , yes that would consider as a *** but nothing to do from my side . I was scared and amazed at same time.
raj cd crossy
|Posted On May 31, 2021 - 08:29 AM|
When I was 16 years old, my uncle who lived next to me *** his ***. He would call me when I was alone and give me his *** in my hand .. and give it in my *** .. i like his 7+ ***
and since then I have become gay
|Posted On May 31, 2021 - 09:35 AM|
For most of them who think they 'were' straight, its only because at that age your mind knew and only knew that man can have relation with a 'female'. You were programmed that way so you never ventured into thinking you were different. Remember, that female thing drifted away becuase somewhere inside your body and genes were not made for it. Its like flow of water finding its way on its own.
|Posted On Jun 6, 2021 - 02:35 PM|
Same. I was attracted to women boobs only upto 13. After that I attracted to men n lost interest in women
|Posted On Jun 7, 2021 - 07:18 AM|
I 70% attract to women remaining 10 to shemales and remaining to 20 men's.
|Posted On Jun 7, 2021 - 07:20 AM|
Por n creates curiosity under you, and in curiosity you try new things, and new things increase with the time passes.
|Posted On Jun 7, 2021 - 08:17 AM|
same here kock4u and i dont know whether im gay or just because i cant get a girl im interested in gay
|Posted On Jun 7, 2021 - 10:16 AM|
I can relate to this..... I was a straight man only interested in women. But later on had a relationship with a shemale I used to *** her *** a lott and drank all her hott ***... It turns me on. Once she even massaged my anus which felt good but however was not able to penetrate as I m still a virgin. All this things has impacted me for *** *** and banging tight ***. However somewhere I felt like I need to be treated like a girl. I too wanna feel that pleasure . And now I am craving for *** even though I haven't been penetrated by anyone.
I do have a gf though but still m confused
|Posted On Jun 8, 2021 - 01:46 AM|
>> For most of them who think they 'were' straight, it's only because at that age your mind knew and only knew that man can have relation with a 'female'. You were programmed that way so you never ventured into thinking you were different.
I don't think this statement is true. I'm an 80s kid and was as innocent as it can get when I attained puberty. I hardly had any friends at that time, never discussed girls or anything and was only into studies, first bencher lol.
I was living with my mom and dad used to visit now and then. I had no clue they even touch each other as I used to sleep off early.
I didn't even know that there was something called *** and man/woman have it to give birth. Was that level innocent. Out of the blue, one night puberty hit and I started fantasizing boobs. It was outright spontaneous. Will go crazy looking at navels and boobs of heroines in songs. My God I was *** as hell.
Within a couple of years, lost interest in women and got interested in men. Just happened.
|Posted On Jun 8, 2021 - 02:41 AM|
@hotbotpop u r very true buddy we 80's kids were very innocent till certain age
|Posted On Jun 8, 2021 - 08:37 AM|
@hotbotpop Your story is very similar to mine except of the fact that i'm not from 80's but belong to Gen Z and never fantasized women's body ever in my life and was always attracted to men from the start itself. Actually i too had no clue that how babies are born and it was an absolute shocker when my classmate explained it to me about the process of *** between men and women, in std 7, when we were reading the reproduction chapter. Tbh my whole world turned upside down and it was the first time i realised that i was different. And unlike you i was not a very studious guy but was an average 80 percent getter. Also i was very much into sports but this whole realisation that i'm different( and for a long time i used to believe that i'm the only person with such feelings) made me an extreme introvert till the time i accepted myself.
|Posted On Jun 8, 2021 - 12:49 PM|
@Aravi46 same here,my *** was life completely dried, I was not getting anyone to cater my sexual needs, I started watching por, then got bored by regular genre, then I moved to ts then tried all genre, I didn't want to engage with commercial *** worker,so I started visiting cruising spots,slowly I started understanding clues from people at cruising spots, started receiving BJ from bots and versies, that's how it started.
Now I enjoy whatever I have to fulfill sexual needs, now days gender doesn't matters to me nor categories like ts, straight not or versatile, these are only terms to convince ourselves, that I belong to this category.
|Posted On Jul 10, 2021 - 04:10 PM|
I am Samar... I am 24 years old....
No experience with boy/men
But when i was in class 10....one of my classmate used to take me to the school toilet and grab my *** & take my pant off & grab it tightly.... In class also he sits with me in the same bench...... Put his school bag on my lap and open my pant zip.... Take my *** on his hand during class...... I never touched his ***.... As I was very shy....but in class 11 my school changed.... I dated many girls and done many stuff with girls......1 month ago I started watching gay/bi *** just for fun..... But now I am dreaming about doing stuff with boy/men..... I think myself as straight boy all my life..... But now I am dreaming about taking *** in my ***..... Taking *** all over my face.....I am from very decent family.... I never done anything with boy/men till now..... I don't know about my position.... I don't know about any preferences.... What to do?
|Posted On Jul 11, 2021 - 08:40 AM|
It's a bit complex topic cos I like both men n women. I watch gay, bi n hetero *** videos. I lov vibrator scenes from the movies. Ugly truth n lust stories so on n so forth. I have not had any physical relationship with women/girls until now although I am interested in them and had a few girl friends. I find it hard to choose between them. I don't know what to do if I need to marry a girl n have fun with men(secret). How do I balance? I like both. Back then during my school days I had a crush on my male n female teacher. Both were hotties. I used to check them out whenever I had a chance. I am reminiscing all those old memories now. I had a very hot neighbours(boy n girl). It's a nice feeling. I remember during school days, we used to a play a game called as *** grab in classes with a bunch of classmates, used to be fun.
I even played it in highschool. There was this guy from different section but he was introduced to me by another friend of mine, I used to grab his *** n he used to grab mine nothing gay but was fun. He had a big package. I used to wait for an opportunity to grab his *** n I used to check out my classmates bulge only certain guys not everyone
Like the most of them, I never liked cricket either. Football kabbadi, tennis , rugby is my fav sport but used to play cricket sometimes n I was neither good at batting nor fielding. I used to miss so many balls(boundaries n catches). I used to play football most of the time. I have had many friends back then but now I am kind of a loner. I had a cute girl as my neighbour on first floor n we were on ground floor. I used to play with her as well. Oh I forgot to mention. I studied in boys school. My girl cousin used to dress me up as a girl when I was little n cousin used to grab me n kiss me cos I was very cute back then. I used to do some naughty stuffs in the night, when lights were off. Hehehe lol. We used to have summer vacations during schooling n we wd gather at my aunt's home. We would sleep together with cousins n sometime slept with uncle beside me. I Used to put my thighs on my cousin's n uncle's *** when asleep. Used to be fun. So many things i reminisce about. Hostel mate crush used to grab me from back n his *** was on my *** crack. So nice feeling. I too faced issue riding bicycle, work in progress. So many incidents n I can pen down a story.
I don't like hardcore *** with men. Just into groping, fondling, cuddling n softcore fun enthusiast. Still on the verge of figuring things out on my sexual orientation. My life is kind of different, earlier I used to hate myself but now I accepted myself. I think Gods have different plans. Don't know what cards he is holding. I feel it is interesting now. Only thing I worry about is having not much friends. Of late, I kind of argue a lot n lose friendship. Anyone out there confused?? Don't be ......
Accept the way u r ........u r unique in your own ways. Don't worry what other think of u. U r not alone. Never feel low.
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