Born straight and became gay

Hi All,

Thoughout my life I've been curious about this. Just wanted to know if this is only my experience or if it is common. When I was around 6th or 7th standard, suddenly one day I hit puberty. I know because I got vivid dreams of boobs and was getting quite *** in the night itself. Then I used to watch navels of heroines and started masturbating. This went on for some time. I still remember this particular incident. In the newspaper one day, there was a picture of this busty heroine with cleavage and navel exposed. I took the paper, ran to an auto behind our house (the driver used to come only in the afternoon) and masturbated licking at those navels and cleavage. Also once in a browsing center someone who was in the cabin before me, left pic of a naked girl and went. I saw that, couldn't control myself and ejaculated there itself. It was the first time I saw nipples. I was super *** all the time and only remember watching women.

This went on for about 1-1.5 years. Later on, I slowly started getting attracted to men instead of women and at one point, I totally lost interest in women. Even my rib cage that was broadening stopped and my height also stopped (could be just a co-incidence). I'm just wondering if any of the below could be the reason for this.

1. My mom was super protective of me and I was very very close to her. But I never had a working relation with my father. We hardly ever spoke with each other. Not that he is bad or anything, but he is quiet type and I never had any physical or mental connection to him.

2. I never used to play with guys of my age. I went to play cricket once or twice but I was bad in fielding and got scoldings too, so never went after that. They used to call me but I never went. Mostly I was into studies.

3. I was scared and never used to ride cycle/scooter that time but most of the boys (and even girls) started coming to school by cycle or bike at that time. My mom who was very protective of me did not even encourage me to ride cycle and all. She was concerned about my safety. I learnt cycle only when I was in 11th standard and bike/scooter much later.

4. I was mostly a loner and had real friends only after 10th standard. I used to long looking at the friendship of my classmates, the way they play with each other and have bike ride trips at those times.

5. Overall I never felt as an equal to the other boys of my age at that time. I thought they were much better than me because they ride cycle/bike and play well while I was shortcoming. May be that complex turned out to be some kind of physical attraction.

6. This may not be the reason but once I overheard my mom accusing my dad of cheating on her with the neighbor lady. My dad was refuting that and nothing happened after that. But then I was a bit traumatized just to think of it because I was too much affectionate to my mom.

Does anyone else have this kind of experience of being straight during puberty and then turned out to be gay?

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