Born straight and became gay
Thoughout my life I've been curious about this. Just wanted to know if this is only my experience or if it is common. When I was around 6th or 7th standard, suddenly one day I hit puberty. I know because I got vivid dreams of boobs and was getting quite *** in the night itself. Then I used to watch navels of heroines and started masturbating. This went on for some time. I still remember this particular incident. In the newspaper one day, there was a picture of this busty heroine with cleavage and navel exposed. I took the paper, ran to an auto behind our house (the driver used to come only in the afternoon) and masturbated licking at those navels and cleavage. Also once in a browsing center someone who was in the cabin before me, left pic of a naked girl and went. I saw that, couldn't control myself and *** there itself. It was the first time I saw nipples. I was super *** all the time and only remember watching women.
This went on for about 1-1.5 years. Later on, I slowly started getting attracted to men instead of women and at one point, I totally lost interest in women. Even my rib cage that was broadening stopped and my height also stopped (could be just a co-incidence). I'm just wondering if any of the below could be the reason for this.
1. My mom was super protective of me and I was very very close to her. But I never had a working relation with my father. We hardly ever spoke with each other. Not that he is bad or anything, but he is quiet type and I never had any physical or mental connection to him.
2. I never used to play with guys of my age. I went to play cricket once or twice but I was bad in fielding and got scoldings too, so never went after that. They used to call me but I never went. Mostly I was into studies.
3. I was scared and never used to ride cycle/scooter that time but most of the boys (and even girls) started coming to school by cycle or bike at that time. My mom who was very protective of me did not even encourage me to ride cycle and all. She was concerned about my safety. I learnt cycle only when I was in 11th standard and bike/scooter much later.
4. I was mostly a loner and had real friends only after 10th standard. I used to long looking at the friendship of my classmates, the way they play with each other and have bike ride trips at those times.
5. Overall I never felt as an equal to the other boys of my age at that time. I thought they were much better than me because they ride cycle/bike and play well while I was shortcoming. May be that complex turned out to be some kind of physical attraction.
6. This may not be the reason but once I overheard my mom accusing my dad of cheating on her with the neighbor lady. My dad was refuting that and nothing happened after that. But then I was a bit traumatized just to think of it because I was too much affectionate to my mom.
Does anyone else have this kind of experience of being straight during puberty and then turned out to be gay?
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|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 12:03 PM|
ur story is kaafi similar to mine...i used to watch normal *** first then due to curiosity started watching gay *** and then loved it. childhood was similar to urs played cricket at young age and then stopped as i felt inferior while playing with some of boys , like they used to tease..i used stay away from some of them due to inferiority.and later it became a habbit.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 12:07 PM|
There is no scientific connection to be straight and then turn gay! People don't turn gay just like that!! it's just that a few are confused in certain phases of life and can't decide on their orientation. They get influenced by society, entertainment,media et al to drive them as straight but since they can't explore or express, their desires are suppressed. These get triggered at some stage in life and then they start exploring that. Then they realise where their heart lies!!
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 12:09 PM|
2,3,4 and 5 are similar cases to me. I was straight too when I was 13. I used to get aroused watching songs like tip tip barsa pani etc. Was interested in girls, and wanted to talk to them, which became difficult as I grew up. Also I would mention that I became very shy and frightful as I grew. My interest in guys came through one of my friends who was actually my close friend too. I was always afraid of playing cricket, cause I was so bad, especially in batting, when I got hit in my nuts, thankfully the ball was plastic. Am also like you with respect to those 4 points. I would also add that I started to feel this shift during puberty. Also my first handjob came from my friend, not me, who was straight and only wanted to show me something. I was ok with both my mom and dad though. Am not sure if those points contributed to me becoming a gay. I just felt comfortable around guys. Maybe that had to do something.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 01:16 PM|
2,3 and 4 are true for me. But I have always been attracted to men. So many times i feel that I am a woman trapped in man's body. This is as much emotionally and relationshipwise,as bodily. But i dont want a gender correction procedure. I am comfortable with the body I have.
While fantasizing I sometimes like to imagine myself as a woman . Also I do enjoy fantasizing and having *** with the male body (its not much masculine though) I have got. Off late, I fantasize being a woman and in a threesome of man- woman- woman, another woman being forced on me. But i have never imagined myself having *** with a woman with me being a male. I never get aroused by a female body.
Read this article - https://bigthink.com/***-relationships/sexuality-spectrum-lesser-known-orientations?rebelltitem=1#rebelltitem1
Google 1. Sexuality is a spectrum 2 fluid sexuality to know more.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 03:31 PM|
None are true for me. I spend most of my life telling people what to do. For me it is a relief to be dominated and to be the one being ordered around.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 03:42 PM|
Sexuality isn't as simple as gay or straight for a lot of people. Very few people are a 100% gay or straight. Sexuality is a spectrum, let's say gay is one end and straight is on the other, most people lie in between. Not at either extremes. If you can break things down into sexual chemistry/physical intimacy and emotional intimacy, you'll have an easier time figuring out who you are and what your sexuality is.
For example, I can only be emotionally intimate with women, with women *** isn't just ***, it's making love. *** is just an amazing way to show my love. I can only feel satisfied emotionally in a romantic relationship with women, but if it's just physical intimacy and just NSA *** then I don't mind venturing into *** with crossdressers or trans because they've always been a kink for me but a real romantic relationship with emotional intimacy just wouldn't feel right with a guy for me. I still consider myself to be closer to bisexual and not straight but definitely not gay.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 04:21 PM|
Very interesting thread. I am a crossdresser and a bottom but I only get attracted to uncles when I am in a girl dress or else I can't even think of it. I don't get attracted to models or actors only uncles or guys younger than me (mainly 40+ uncles). I don't like kissing or any emotional involvement with a man, I just want them to *** me like a roadside prostitute, just like use and throw. No romantic intimacy. With a man I only want physical relation that too only when I am dressed and treated like a girl/***. I don't know what that makes me.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 05:47 PM|
@Ultimate - What you are saying is definitely not true. It's not like I looked at the society and conditioned myself to get attracted to women. In fact I was such a studious kid and born in a conservative family that I never even bothered to think of girls, *** or anything like that. Puberty hit me out of the blue and suddenly I became so curious and *** about breasts, cleavage, navel etc overnight. This confused state, desire suppression and all that can happen may be later but not during puberty time. I was under zero social pressure to even express my sexuality forget about being gay or straight.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 05:51 PM|
@Jeanebad - Good to know that you also had a similar experience. I believe the lifestyle and our thought process during the tender years leading to puberty and a few years after that can influence our sexuality.
@Amar - No spectrum for me, unfortunately. I was 100% straight during puberty and now 100% gay. May be I was attracted to both men and women during the short transformation phase but I don't remember anything of it.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 06:32 PM|
i can relate to this story but i just don't know whether I'm gay or not :(
sometimes i just want to get *** by every uncle i see
but sometimes i just want to have fun with girls.
this is a very confusing stage of my life.
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 07:37 PM|
@smoothvers .buddy same here....I also feel the same way
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 08:14 PM|
It happened with me as well... after having a gay encounter I feel guilty of doing it and always think that I should have not done it.. it feels like I'm cheating someone even though I am single.
Sometimes feel why do I do this be,
Can anyone tell why do I feel this way?
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 08:37 PM|
ROFL. This thread is a perfect example of internalized homophobia. We need to learn to accept who we are as a complete person and not blame or look for a reason and be apologetic for being gay. Guilt comes when you try to fit yourself in a hetero-normative society.You don't become gay!!! You are gay.....
Be happy, be gay, be fabulous :-)
|Posted On May 14, 2020 - 11:18 PM|
@boobi101 No it’s not homophobia but just the time between accepting our self, till the time we don’t discover our parts we thought we were straight but things started it making prominent and now here we are on this thread calling ourselves gay in front of the world.
I don’t think if people are accepting their *** here they are homophobic.
Maybe the title provided can be misleading but when you read the thread you’ll get to know.
I was a gay from beginning, started up doing things with my younger cousin at a young age of 7-8.
later got a partner when I was in 14, he was friend of same age but with him I was the one who initiated it, it went long way and we still do it when I meet him but you know what, till the time I frequently started having feelings about my partner and it wasn’t just *** *** but lusty and sensual that’s when I got to be sure and until then I felt I am a straight.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 02:05 AM|
@hotbotpop, you've got my point misunderstood. Society doesnt condition you in to become gay or straight. It just that it moulds your feelings, may be to act straight. Right from your childhood we get used to seeing hetero couple and kids and thus definitely pushes us to think and act crazy. How did does it dawn at your puberty that you only think of cleavages, navel and breasts and women?? Why don't you think of chests, *** or *** that time? Yes may be a few would have had that feeling, but majorily we tend to be like how people around us are! It's like -monkey see- monkey do!
Again, there are few exceptions may be you are one among those. My point is very clear, you don't get to decide what you are, nature does. Some try to fight it and others don't.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 06:12 AM|
Being gay or strait is not your fault.
Your genes at birth are different which make you gay. So don’t be guilty or its your fault. Nature made you that way and it was not your fault even 1 %
Be confident and be true.... life is great even being gay...
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 09:18 AM|
I was about 11 when I developed a rash in my scrotum which made it unbearable. So my mom bout me a satin dress to wear at home since nobody will know and it will be comfortable. But she didn't know i would get so addicted. My parents were teachers and spent the whole day outside. So I wore the dress everyday when they left and i would change before they arrive. My family had furniture shop downstairs. So it was a summer day and I was watching tv when one of the laborers came to ask when my parents would come and the door was unlocked. He saw me sitting there and just smiled and locked the door and put me in his lap. Every day he would come and watch tv with me in his lap and sometimes he would kiss me. Sometimes he even came bare chested. I even *** him off couple of years later. He still smiles and steals a few kisses whenever we are alone.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 01:21 PM|
This is completely wrong despite the argument around nature vs nurture we can't blame our parents or our environment for turning us into gay because there is no such thing as being turned into gay.. It's all in our genes evolution says that a specific percentage of population has to be homosexual to maintain balance in nature. From your readings I could infer that you could be bisexual or pan sexual or gay or whatsoever it is but one can never claim he's turned into homosexual by external conditioning. Just accept your sexuality as it is and be thankful you have discovered that hitherto latent beautiful feelings inside which have remain hidden so far. I also grew up watching only straight porns and jerking while doing so, always into sports, always part of big boys gang groups in schools and locality but only during college time I realize I'm also attracted to other guys. First I was very excited with this discovery but very soon tried to deny for fear of rejection and just like you started searching for blame games like maybe socializing with girls so often in college. But I realized no matter how much you try to deny you are gonna realize no one makes you or influences to be gay or bisexual. So do not have any regret maybe if you have hanged out with other boys more you could have been straight.. NO it doesn't work that way All my high school buddies were conventional sporty male dudes yet I discovered my real sexuality sooner or later and most of the gay guys or bisexuals I have had fun or relationship with, they are also pretty much conventional masculine sporty jocks who also accept their sexuality. You should not carry any guilt trying to analyze what went wrong with your socialization instead be thankful you are able to realize what your body wants as well as your emotional needs. Once you accept this, you'll feel much better and there shan't be any doubt in life
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 01:43 PM|
@boobi101 - No its not homophobia. I know that I'm 100% gay now and I accept that. As a gay myself, why would I have homophobia??
@Ultimate - No, it's neither the movies nor social conditioning. I never even knew men were supposed to be attracted to women. I never knew how I was born, did not had many friends, so didn't even know about ***. The first time when I saw a naked girl's pic in cybercafe I was super turned on but later felt guilty for looking at a woman like that. I remember being distressed why I saw a woman like that. I thought I did something terribly wrong. May be if I had some friends that time, I might have known it is normal.
I'm not depressed or anything for being gay. I'm happy and proud of myself. I have several friends now and I'm having all sorts of fun. If my future kids turn out to be gay, I would whole-heartedly accept them. The point of this post is to find out - if at all, just if at all, there could be any other factor as I listed that could have contributed in my transformation. If that is the case, at least I and anybody having or will be having a kid in future in this forum can learn from this.
Because honestly, no matter how much you claim you are proud of being a gay, you may not want your (straight by nature) son to transform to be a gay, at least in a closeted country like India. That said, if my kid still 'becomes' a gay or he is gay by nature or in any other case, I would not only whole-hearted accept him/her but would be proud of them for accepting themselves the way they are.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 01:49 PM|
@Tasty8Lollipop - That's interesting. May be I also had this hidden desire for men by nature.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 02:24 PM|
At 9, I knew I was different; at 12, I found out the word for it; at 15, I was targeted for it; at 18, I tried to ignore it - I wanted to 'fit in'. From 19, I was comfortable amd happy with being gay. I was born with one of millions of genetic permutations that contribute to the ~9% of humans who are gay. (In Vietnam, the rationale is that as many people are left-handed as are gay. It's just another human trait.) It's the way your brain and its biology is wired. You can ignore it, but you can't change it.
Being the son of heterosexual and religious parents, there was no discussion of being gay as a possible outcome. But my grandmother knew before I did. (Grandmothers always know!) Being surrounded by a hetero-normative culture confused me for a bit, but once I encountered the gay lifestyle, I was home, and have been finding a place in it ever since! I have no desire to pass on my genes, so I don't need to have straight *** or a family. I accept myself as part of a minority, as different, and as fully functioning.
Recognise what you are, be informed by your desires, and be honest with yourself. In that way you will maintain your dignity, whether you are gay, bisexual, MSM, non-binary, pan-sexual or straight. Stand tall.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 02:55 PM|
I had first encounter at the age of 7 with three other same age boys. We used to play family game husband & wife with oral and cuddle. I was new to the town and I was included in their game. Soon I found more friends and started ignoring these three. Because at that age playground attracted more than these hidden acts. All these activities of childhood vanished from my mind. I started masturbating at the age of 13 looking at pics of bare male models in magazines. During my middle, high and higher secondary school I used to get attracted toward my seniors, classmates or other guys who were mostly bold naughty type. But neither found the word to define my attraction nor any one else of my type. I had hope to the college and there also same thing neither word nor someone else. Everyone used to talk about girls only. I accepted that it's me only alone who feels like this and perhaps it's only imagination which doesn't exist. I used to have attraction towards guys but fantasizing sexual act with them started varnishing.
During college I felt romantic attraction towards two girls and secual towards one. But never approached to any one. I watched my first *** (in secretly rented CD, straight one) after completing college. While watching *** I always wanted to be sandwich between the two i.e. male and female performers. I wanted to have with both. So I can't say wheather I was born gay/straight/bi or I became so during developmental phase of life. But now I have accepted my attractions and sexuality. Offcourse the knowledge (of the word and community) came little later in life......but.... 🤐
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 03:22 PM|
when i was 16 friend of me chat about us about mastrbation.. but i am start *** on my age of 20 seeing x movies on theatre..
at age of 26 while watching movie a guy next to me signaled me come to toilet.. i think he is uneasy to go lone. so i go with him. but in the toilet he un buckled my jeans.. i stopped him and ran away..
i chat about this matter with my close friend he cleared that he was a gaymen..
me like smart white and childish look on the age.. whenever i got a work and travel in buses i got touching and groping by oldies..
now i am fully turned to taste real gay *** from real man..
searching here good man at any age with fully loaded
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 04:25 PM|
Sexuality is extremely complex and dynamic. The spectrum explanation is valid and scientific. The biggest flaw is to try to compartmentalize and define sexuality and gender, and later on start classifying humans into labels. It is just better to respect your feelings and make your choices void of external influences. That is the only way of complete self expression and satisfation of living one's life fully. Of course these should be done without harming anyone for selfish reasons.
|Posted On May 15, 2020 - 07:10 PM|
The spectrum concept is closest one has got to explaining sexual orientation.
If that concept of sexual orientation behaving like a spectrum is to be believed, it means that your orientation can also change over time and does not remain same at all times (like a spectrum)
Different people will have different liking to different degrees and this degree of liking can be different at different times
So someone saying that he has become gay after certain age or experience can also be true
Someone becoming a bottom from Top can also be true
Food for thought to all
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 03:06 AM|
my story is very different . coz in starting i m very attracted to girls , and aunties and i have get lots of relationships with them but all of them started to betraying me and i got lits of betraying and oneday i was watching *** movies then suddenly i saw a gay video then i realize that will it can be possible .. so after that i searched on google how to get in touch with gays . andd i got lots of answers about it then i got a contact number of a local gay then we started talking and sharing eachother feelings then we do lots of fun and enjoyment so after that i feel very good and satisfied with the men relationship so now i m proudly saying that i m a gay and i loved it .
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 06:15 AM|
After reading all the posts above I just felt, let me throw my two cents of thought into this discussion. As much the spectrum concept or sexual fluidity is closest in explaining one's sexual orientation, I was gay for most part of my life and never had attractions of any sort with opposite gender. As far as I go back in my memory lane, it all started when I was 10-11 years old. I was enjoying playful wrestling games with my fellow mates, I was consciously maintaining distance whenever I was sleeping next to other guys (my cousins), I am pretending as if I am not bothered by their dress changeovers. This is when all this thoughts of fancieng guys slowly starting taking moulds in my mind.
On hitting puberty it wasn't an easy take for me as this very thought got contested by another constrained force of attraction towards girls due to the hetero normative setting I grew up in. Unfortunately, there was no one that I can look forward to in expressing my struggle. That fight within me continued until I was say 24-25. The forces that shaped my struggle during those days were 1) religious family and the town that I grew up, 2) the fellow mates I was accompanied with during my school and early Uni. days and 3) hetero normative society. As we being the minorities, I don't really want to put the blame on any of these factors.
Those days were gone, all have changed for better now, being a happy gay or proud queer as my profile suggests I came out of that struggle. After convencieng for what I am, now that I have one less thing to worry about in my life. That being said, I am still a closeted gay and can express boldly only among our community. Hopefully I will come out one day bright and shine and express to the society as louder as it gets.
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 06:49 AM|
I was born straight, my parents were too strict. I was never in a relationship with any girl, Everytime I proposed the one I like, I was rejected, I had *** with girls who wanted friends with benefits but not a serious relationship. Few years back while traveling in the local train, guy started playing with my *** and I enjoyed it and as station came I got down and since then Everytime I traveled in the train I was always looking for a hand to come and touch my *** but I could never get that experience again. I work in merchant Navy, I spend 9 months away from home on a ship with 20 guys, I feel lonely and *** every day and night. I got friends to talk but also I m young and I have urges and I don't have a friend with whom I can flirt or talk dirty. That brought me here on ohmojo, I haven't figured out my sexuality yet. I try to talk with guys, also I have shared my WhatsApp number with some and chatted and hours later I have regret doing it and I have blocked people and again the urges rises and have chatted and again blocked.
I don't know am I bisexual or turning in to gay or what, but I don't want this regret feeling, and I don't know how to get rid of it
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 08:45 AM|
@Johnson1307 you better be clear with what you want.. No one can be turned gay or bisexual deliberately. It's just that we haven't been able to freely explore our sexuality due to societal restrictions but if you think of getting rid of it, it's going to create multiple problems later. I used to think I'll have ultimate fun with guys and finally settle with a woman in life but I'm wrong. Marriage with a woman won't stop our homosexual attraction if it's within us. As a matter of fact lots of married men in India end up losing *** life with their wives while having physical or emotional relationship with guys. We may think we'll get rid of it or hide it but ultimately the world is going to find out so it's anyway better to find out ourselves what we really want and what our body needs. The last thing we would want the world to know about us is someone a pervert pretending to be something else just like the case of a Delhi woman who killed herself leaving a suicide note on finding out her husband is gay right after marriage. I wouldn't want that kind of revelation and would instead prefer myself being truthful to me and to people around. The reason why we are on gay dating platforms like Ohmojo, planet romeo and Grindr is simple and no matter how much we try to deny or get rid of, we'll always end up looking for these platforms. Don't suppress this kind of bodily needs for the consequences will be harmful it may lead to depression delusion anxiety mental harm so best is to be truthful to ourselves first
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 02:48 PM|
My childhood shares 1,2,3,4 points of urs,even i have thought tis might be the reason..Also i had grown up with the teaching that women should not be seen in sexual manner,i dont mean wrong of others..jus tat it was too much imparted in me that i tried to control my thoughts at initial stage itself..finally my sexual urge was concentrated on men only..now i can only imagine myself with other guys but not girls
|Posted On May 16, 2020 - 10:46 PM|
So much of points coincinding with me too..cricket..bike ride..cycle ride at 11th std..
1. In my colleagues circle i seem to be only person not watching cricket. I in fact hate cricket and have been scolded by boys during young age for bad fielding. On the other hand i find it exhilarating to see men gesturing bowling sometimes in doors..bowling in itself is weird to me, its as if some kind of dance move. I banter my gay friends who (pretend to) follow cricket..i had slightest interest to see men like unmukt chand but no patience to see a game.
2. I can't drive too. Put me in a room full of girls. I wont be so much careful abt how i look or talk or walk. But if men r around i cant be comfortable.
3. I used to think i wud have been st8 if i werent molested as a boy at a tender age. I may have later discovered the journey to the poles
4. I prefer st8 to gay porns..watching a woman makes me *** not because she is a woman but because of the bliss she gets to enjoy which i dont get.
5. Believe it or not i have no interest in women but *** recently quite a few girls..i think i am not a lesbo!!
6. At work i find it easy to say no to women but not to men(esp if he is hot).
Sorry i have hijacked discussion of sexuality to something but just my experiences but no prejudices or judgement on anyones views
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 06:58 AM|
I was born a complete straight man! But when I started watching straight *** videos, I imagined myself in the girl's position more than that of boys! I loved the feeling of *** a *** and licking all that *** which was dropped on my body!
When I reached my class 11th and moved out of my hometown, I downloaded Grindr and some apps like that and I used to find top males around me who used to make me feel a woman. Soon I started watching gangbang and domination videos and my mindset changed. I started as a bottom but now I got converted to a sissy bottom slave. I loved being used around and I loved being *** hard even I had just *** uptil now. I soon started looking for tops much more often and who were dominant instead of romantic *** lovers.
I loved when someone groped my boobs or spanked my ***. I loved the feelings top have when they see my arched back because it used to show them my big ***. They love spanking me and I just love being in a gangbang I don't know why!
I love when I am surrounded by *** all around me, love when I am the centre of attraction in a room full of men waiting for their own turn to have their way with me!
Wearing high heels because it enlargens my ***, wearing sexy panties and sexy bras make me feel like a woman!
Anyone who wants a sissy bottom in Delhi, do drop a message! Muah my master! Why don't we form a group of 7-8 guys for my gangbang on WhatsApp! Interested men drop a message!!
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 07:52 AM|
So basically everyone is desperately trying to say that they were straight and were forced into being gay. Blame it on anything you like from circumstances to the planet Jupiter , whatever.... What is this obsession with wanting to be straight and not gay. And so many want to convince themselves and the world that they are bisexual. Why ? What is so horrible about being gay ? What is the meaning of completely straight ? Partially straight ? PArtially gay ? 60% straight, 40% gay ? The sooner you accept that you are gay the better your life will be. I am not saying everyone should start announcing they are gay. But deep down you know what exactly you are. Instead of hiding it, embrace it. And let it go. You will see, you will be free to pursue other stuff in your life. Because you deny your sexuality to yourself, you are obsessed with and are constantly looking for ***. Once you let it go it will just become a part of you and not dominate your entire life.
This whole thread is inauthentic. Born straight and forced to be gay ? It is because you dont want to take responsibility for yourself , blaming others is easy. Circumstances, parents, family, friends, people etc etc are all EXCUSES. Wake up. Accept yourself and DEAL WITH IT.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 08:06 AM|
@letsfuck...... Finally someone said.... Thank you for articulating it so well... High time that men stopped being such pansies with even more insecure masculinities going around justifying such rubbish. Thank you once again.... And people read!!! Read his comment!!! And for once man up for yourselves.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 10:06 AM|
@bobbybutt, watching *** made you gay or bisexual, before watching shemale or gay ***,I also think I am straight,but now I think, I m bisexual.
Main question is does *** make you anything, which shown in that ***
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 10:17 AM|
@bustyslit, same question does *** make you bi or gay, this question Haunted me, this too happen to me, before watching bi & homo *** I was straight, & after watching *** I start liking it, I was In relationship with girl, we had good *** life, then we broke up, after I started watching different kinds of ***, & I liked that.
I think in my case or anyone case you need a touch feel of someone's body. When you don't get it for so long, you start exploring to get it.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 10:54 AM|
@bobbybutt, @bustyslit and @C0ck4u: each of you describe clicking with a new experience, not something that fundamentally changed you. The potential was there to begin with; viewing *** allowed you to 'feel right' or 'more complete' about sexual yourself. You were not made gay by it, your sexual compatabilities were broadened.
By the way, bobbybutt, how was your sexuality tested at birth?
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 11:03 AM|
@C4LEB, I do not know what exactly happened in my case because I was never forced into anything! I just liked being what I am and I continued with it!
Maybe I am gay, maybe I am Bi, I do not care because I am what I am!
It must be that watching *** gave birth to the curiousity inside me and when I explored that curiousity myself, I kept on going deeper and deeper into the world of Gay ***. Yes Gay *** because that's all I have been doing uptil now. I do not want a relationship with an another man but just want some quick sexual fun!
That's what I am! Everyone has got their own choices and orientation, this is mine!
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 11:14 AM|
"I was born a complete straight man! But when I started watching straight *** videos, I imagined myself in the girl's position more than that of boys! ...I downloaded Grindr... and I used to find top males around me... to make me feel a woman."
These indicate you discovering your sexuality.
"Soon I started watching gangbang and domination videos and my mindset changed. I started as a bottom but now I got converted to a sissy bottom slave. I loved being used around and I loved being *** hard even I had just *** uptil now. I soon started looking for tops much more often and who were dominant..."
These indicate you discovering your kink, your fetishes.
Well done, and good for you that you are open and can talk about it, but no-one can say they were "born straight". There is just no way to know.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 11:51 AM|
When I was in relationship with girl, we used to have *** twice a week, on the other day before we get to sleep, we used to do *** chat, everything was going well.
But after we broke up, my sexual needs didn't fulfill, I started masturbating after every 3 days, 2 months after broke up, I didn't get a ***. My urge level was on high, I wanted to release it, I needed a touch of someone's, feel of somebody. N I got it by one bottom, he *** my tool like a toy, I never felt like this something before. Then we started calling & chatting, we started meeting on Saturday for encounters. & This continues. Frankly I am with him only for my sexual needs. He releases my urge. I feel great whole week,after I release my ***.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 12:01 PM|
Fair enough, another aspect to sexuality - you find sexual release wherever you can. Men who have *** with men (MSM) is a recognised identity around the world. It is culturally non-specific. Bring that to the mid-way and you have the Pan-sexual. If we go back to @let'sfuck's point, "Sexuality is extremely complex and dynamic. The spectrum explanation is valid and scientific."
I don't agree with his opinion about compartmentalising sexuality (I think that a word helps an individual posit themselves along the spectrum, reducing anxiety), but hey!, everyone has different inputs to get where they are. All informed opinions are valid.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 01:04 PM|
I don't tag myself straight, since I had encounters with guys,
Tagging yourself is like, you restrict yourself to do something beyond that, anyone whose tagging himself straight, is totally myth, he is fooling himself, since you engage in MSM for any reason, you cannot say, you are pure straight, you can classify yourself top versatile bottom if you wish, but don't judge or treat anyone by his sexual orientations. If you are happy doing something, then you don't need to worry about who you are, you might be bisexual or homo. Just be who are.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 02:30 PM|
I disagree that once 'tagged', it restricts you. It can't, not when you are the one doing the tagging.
Each person develops at different rates and through different experiences to find their own place of peace and satisfaction. Sometimes that requires a balance, a compromise; it all depends on the price you're willing to pay.
In a country where gay marriage is legal, young guys in Australia still get thrown out of their homes, even families, for being honest to themselves. That's when it becomes crucial that social bias is minimised. Most people over the age of 25 know that sexual differences exist. They may not like it, but not liking something means you stear clear of it. I don't like capsicum, but I don't run capsicum traders out of town.
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 02:54 PM|
Hi I am new here. Let me tell you about my ezperiences. I've heard people saying that you are born straight but *** and other stuff makes you gay or whatever. When I a kid around 5-6 years old I did not even know about all these things but even then I had this desires to dress up as a girl. When my sisters used to go to school I just loved the way they looked in skirt and I used to admire them so much and wished I could look and dress like them. Then at that age only I secretly started wearing their skirts when no one was at home. Then one day I got caught by my uncle who suddenly showed up unexpectedly and then my whole family got to know about it and they laughed the matter off.
I felt really shy then when all my elder cousins (female) made fun of me. Then for a very long time I did not felt that way.
When I turned 13 or 14 then I started doing it again secretly. I was and still am mesmerized by the variety of dresses and combinations of clothes and jewelry and accessories female community members gets to wear and I just feel that it's really not fair that we just get boring shirt and jeans to wear everyday.
This was about my crossdressing part.
Now coming to my sexuality (which I am still exploring), I was always a very skinny and petite guy. You know the guy who cannot do lot of physical activities and who is kept in a cricket team by his friends only to get the ball when it gets stuck on some pile of ***. Psychologically speaking I just do not have strong convincing or persuasive powers. If anyone shouts or yells me to do anything I do it quickly. Although I was attracted to girls but I never thought I would ever have a chance with them as I was very small and thin as compared to guys my age. They just looked at me as someone who will help them with studies and all but not a boyfriend type.
So all the above developed in me a sense of submissive personality and now am 22. I still crossdress secretly although I wish I can do it freely. When I watch *** I want to look like the girl and want to be in the girls place. When I see couples and if the guy is really hot I want to be the girl and if the guy is not very hot I wish I could be in his place. I don't know whether I am bisexual or not but I really wish sometimes to wake up one day with a *** and see myself as a very hot girl in the mirror. I also crave for hot ***. I want myself to turn into a hot girl and *** a hot black muscular guy while looking in the mirror.
I also want to have *** with a girl sometimes and choke her to death and make her my bitch. But I do not think of this with any cd or gay bottom. With a guy I just wanna be the girl and only when I look completely like a girl. I really don't know what the *** is wrong with me. I'm so confused
|Posted On May 18, 2020 - 05:12 PM|
Reading all above post, according to me one should fulfill his sexual desire , if it is not done. Then our mind starts playing game with us, resulting in a dilemma in which we experience an confusion and think who are we ?
Sadly to say no one reads our mind and on exact time we are not able to satisfy our desire.
I'm born straight from when I have got conscious about my body, I used to get really hard when I think about sexy heroines, girls. but never knew how to approach them. never touch them or kissed them . Many times just used to imagine these things. As times passed these things started to die.
One day my friend he said me about gays and behavior.and he said me about there like not sure how many them are true. I liked it he said me that they like to give blowjob. So I thought to try once.and I liked it. , And I'm still exploring about these things. But I accept that I'm bisexual. Coz still I have tendencies towards girls .
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 04:06 AM|
I have had every phase in my life. I have been straight, gay, bisexual etc. I used to think why I had such switches and wondered if there's something wrong with me. I started tagging myself "Curious" as that is what best described my switches.
Then I started to study myself as to why the switches happened. I found that whenever I am approached for *** or sexual activities like chats etc by someone, my brain never gave a thought to their gender. I was more interested into enjoying the fun rather than looking at the gender of who I was having fun with. That is when I realised my sexuality was beyond genders and now I term myself "Pansexual". That means, my sexual attraction towards someone is irrespective of their gender. I can have fun with a girl, a guy, a shemale, etc anyone else.
So I have realised that more than our environment, it is our mind that shapes us and our sexuality. No matter what, you will become what your mind wants you to be. It's just that you were made that way. Let's just stay happy with that.
Although I might find it tough to mention this in public to my nearby's because of the society we are living in, I am quite happy with myself. I enjoy being myself.
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 05:01 AM|
3... Now I am 33, still don't know how to ride any vehicle. Feel worthless when I could not ride in emergency situation... Else situation is quite good with cabs, autos, public transport. Being with family always humiliating...
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 01:35 PM|
1. I and many others have already mentioned spectrum of sexuality and fluid sexuality.
2. The term born straight is misleading. We dont know about our sexuality until we reach the age of puberty and as the above mentioned two terms indicate that it keeps on evolving.
3. Expression or realisation of sexuality is also a matter of exposure.
4. I wrote that I shared to some extent points 2-3-4-5 above. But it does not mean that I turned out gay because of I was overprotected or did not take part in physical sports. It is a matter of my physic.
5. Some feel they turned gay because they had some homosexual experience as a child. It could be that the *** abuser could sense hint of homosexuality in them and chose them as a prey.
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 03:16 PM|
Does it change anything tbh? No, it doesn't. We invest a lot of time thinking and discussing about stuffs which are beyond our understanding and in the end, we get nothing. I think all these discussions of why we are gay and why we like certain type of men are exhaustive and unfruitful in the end. In all these discussions we never get to any conclusion and we are always confused and feel that we are abnormal in some ways, which we are not. Because being different is not abnormal. It's totally normal to love anyone and instead of thinking of why, it's better we think of why not. Why not a man could love and feel attracted to another man? And blaming your father or your friends is no good. It's just an excuse and nothing more than that. Because there are hundreds of gay men who have great relationship with their fathers and have mostly led a very happy childhood and are still gay. So, in my view, you are who you are and seeking an answer of your feeling by which no one is getting hurt in any way is just a waste of time. Because in the end, understanding why you feel the way you feel changes nothing. Accepting it changes everything.
|Posted On May 19, 2020 - 04:08 PM|
Self inquiry is the basis of philosophy. I like to question who and what I am, and ask how it came about. I think it does matter, that you can posit yourself in the human experience, and not just operate on blind sensation. Self awareness informs your behaviour, so yes, questioning our situation DOES change things: how you engage with the world. Our thoughts are not exhaustive, nor are they unfruitful if it means you can negotiate circumstances and live a more content life.
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